a hospital bird with soot in her lungsshe slept through a car crashthat almost killed her,through whitewhite wallsand dreamswhere her lover diesnobody thought she'd make itbut she woke up a few months laterwith flowers in her hairand ash in her airwaytrying to remember how to start all overbut forgetting to remember how to live.fall slipped from her open eyesand winter crawled in for a long hibernationof not-quite-cold-enough-for-snowto her the clouds looked sickand pale like they mightlet everything inside them out,but she opened up wide instead,spilling blood where there was none to be spilled.her heart slipped down the streetand with unsteady handsshe stitched in a bird and cut off its wings.
beta physicsi.the rain wrapped impatience around your roof,bored through the wood like a thousand million termites(or one you-sized termite, blind, breathless)and seeped from the cold clockwork like battery acid.ii.you lived in a widow's closet -a house swarmed with antiquesthat collapsed in their own gravityand combusted -and then you lived in widow's charcoal.iii."galaxies are either lovers or termites," she mused.(earlier, her fingernails bored into my backHubble's thousand million stars, all drops of acidbranding my spine.)"they are drawn to each other for yearsand in an instant, once together,eat themselves alive.
Sky EyesDesert hands tell talesof a hundred arid summers, butyou are no longer as cloudless as they(there is a storm creeping through blue, blue veins).But tell the sky to keep her sorrow,that grey cascade blurring againsteyelids and horizons;and suppress her misbegottendroplets, seeping into the soddenground underfootfor there is still sun in your sky eyes.
Crows"Crows," I whisper and she flies,brown arrow shotfrom the bowstring of a word.
seven minutes.7.time's hands on my eyesi swim in a sea of blackguided by instinct6.i was only threewhen my mother told me thatlives could be taken5.the first time i lovedi wore my heart on my cheeks( he called me rosy )4.i left school to writeand serve coffee to truckerswho tipped me in books3.i married in romeand waltzed in barcelonabefore i went broke2.why we had two kidsi cannot even explainbut they were my words1.when i was eightymy story flew off the pressand i flew with it0.death kissed my foreheadand peeled back time's fingertips"welcome home, my child"
Vanilla I brushed the air with my fingertips, soft. I felt it beneath me as I flew. My toes tapped the ground, first right foot, then left, and I was floating again. I felt you next to me, and let my toes stutter to a walk, like spinning. I pulled my phone out of my tight girl-pants pocket, but I didn't look at it. The moment I did, I knew the world would disappear for a bit, and I wasn't done looking. I knew you were waiting for me, though, so I closed my eyes and slid the phone open, pushing the right buttons to unlock your message. I held up the phone and peeked a look.
Gamma RadioI traveled to Jupiter once. I fell down dizzy in the cockpit as it's speeding colors blew my mindand I didn't make it back to earthfor forty blue days and nights.After I had landed,I couldn't stop inhaling the sun.I'd pull my feet out of the gaudy tilesbut I could never truly walk awayfrom those streaming particlesand their mirrored twins.It had occurred to me, way up in the skythat everything is beautiful.Not all of it will take away my eyes and yearsquite like a whirling death stormin the deepest night.But some will,with an even higher satisfaction rating.It was quite possibly the first timethat I had e